Monday, January 10, 2011

We're Pregnant...Again Again!

I have debated and debated about posting this yet. Part of me is so ready for my blog readers to know this big secret and the other part of me...the part of me surrounded by fear, worries about it. I know I should blindly trust. I constantly pray for the ability to do that. But in being honest with you (and the big man upstairs)...I'm just not there yet. So, with that, I ask that you not post anything on my facebook about this.

 Monday, November 15th (3.5 Weeks)
Because of my scheduled MRI, I was required to take a pregnancy test. I took one on Thursday, November 11th and got a "Not Pregnant," but just had a nagging feeling that I should take another one today and HAPPILY saw, "Pregnant" on the screen. Of course, we are beyond overjoyed!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! There are a million fears, which I just have to hand over to God (not the easiest thing to do in the world for a control freak like me). For right now, I have decided not to publicly announce it until after my 20 week ultrasound, but we'll see how I'm feeling. I said a prayer and thanked the Lord for blessing us, but I am positive I will spend a lot of the pregnancy doing just that. 10 months of praying, here we come! The irony is not lost on me that this new bundle of joy would NEVER have been possible had Cole still been in my belly. In fact, I would have been 28 weeks today and made the milestone of entering my third trimester with my precious baby, Cole. How is that for timing? Thank you, Thank you, thank you, thank you!!!!!!
Monday, November 22nd (4.5 Weeks)

Wow! In my pregnancy with Cole and of course in my pregnancy with Connor, I had no fear. I never worried about miscarrying (I mean it was a fleeting thought, but nothing substantial). I never worried about genetics or kidney formation or ultrasounds or any of the other things that have made me stressed the last few days. Every time I start to feel overwhelmed I repeat over and over, "There is a plan for my life!" I have to remember that regardless of what happens in this pregnancy or with Mr. Howard and I, that there is a plan for our lives. The only change in my life has been the addition of prenatals (hey! With this pregnancy I'm not taking ANY chances), the loss of ALL caffeine (not even one tiny sip of coffee), and lots and lots and lots of water. Why is it that the second I get pregnant I become like a dying woman desperately needing water at all times of the day?!?
Monday, November 29 (5.5 Weeks)
We were able to see our Little Baby today on an ultrasound and when I say little, I mean LITTLE. He/she was only a little over a centimeter. Wow! What a miracle. We got a picture of the sac and the baby, but they couldn't find a heartbeat (completely normal for a 5 weeker). So we have to go back in two weeks to see our SLIGHTLY bigger baby with a heartbeat.
Monday, December 6, 2010 (6.5 Weeks)
Well. The nausea set in on Saturday. I was beginning to wonder when it would take root. I had nausea  BIG TIME with Connor (all the way until around the 18th week) from sun-up to sun-down and lost a bunch of weight. With Cole it only lasted a few days. I am worried about both. I don't want it to last forever, but unfortunately, now I associate morning sickness with a healthy pregnancy. So in some ways, it will be a comfort to have it. Did I really just say that? If I still have morning sickness in 12 weeks, will you remind me that I just wrote that!?
Monday, December 13, 2010 (7.5 Weeks)
The nausea is still here. Eek. On top of that, I got a cold. And we're hosting a Christmas party at our house on Saturday. Poor Mr. Howard has been working a million hours and has been trying to help me out more. Boy will I be happy some day when he's done with school. =) We go back in two days for our ultrasound to see Baby's heartbeat! I will be so happy when I can see his/her little beating heart on the ultrasound! I am so appreciative of the little things this time around.
Wednesday, December 15, 2010 (8 Weeks)
Happy Birthday to my darling husband and WHAT A FABULOUS BIRTHDAY PRESENT HE GOT!!! Twins....yep, you heard me. TWINS!!!! If that doesn't make you believe in God, I can't imagine what would. I would be almost 33 weeks pregnant with Cole if he were still here, and instead we are having two babies in July. Is that not divine? THANK YOU, LORD!
Monday, December 20, 2010 (8.5 Weeks)
I swear I've felt the babies moving. Is that even possible? I was thinking that if one of them is behind the other, one could be pushing up against my belly. I need to remember to ask the doctor when I go in for an appointment. I am sooo happy! So happy! SOOOO happy! I took my one hour glucose test today (I didn't have to do that with Connor until 24 weeks...so this must be a twin thing) and happily I passed...which is good because hours before, I was sitting on the couch eating chocolate covered apple slices. Oops!
Monday, December 27, 2010 (9.5 Weeks)
Wow! Morning sickness is rough this time around. Perhaps because there is twice the trouble in there! After not keeping food or water down for two days, my worried husband told me we were going to go to the hospital. Thankfully, I kept the few drops of liquid down that I had and from there it got better (can you tell I REALLY do not like the hospital?). By the next morning I was able to call the doctor and get a prescription for phenergan. We had a lot of fun telling our family and close friends (a must, since I was so sick) about our two bundles of joy and everyone was very excited. My mom got us a glider for our nursery and a second coach diaper bag for our soon-to-be family of five. Wow! Crazy!
Monday, January 3, 2011 (10.5 Weeks)
We had another ultrasound and the babies looked great (I will have to post the photos later. They're in Mr. Howard's car). Before the appointment my blood pressure was 151 over something and afterwards, it was 115 over something. Can you tell how nervous I am before seeing my babies? I hate that I worry about the worst, but it is such relief to see both babies wiggling around and their hearts beating! How is it possible to be THIS in love?!?
Monday, January 10, 2011 (11.5 Weeks)
I have another ultrasound on the 14th for our Nuchal Translucency test (the test for down syndrome and a few other genetic tests). A girl could really get used to all these ultrasounds. I am in love with seeing my babies on the screen. I absolutely cannot wait until I find out what they are. With Connor and Cole we didn't find out. We wanted to be surprised. Mr. Howard and I agreed that with this pregnancy what we need is to NOT be surprised. Ultrasounds are frightening for us. Going to the doctor is frightening. Hearing bad news is frightening. And we both need something to look forward to...something to hold in our mind. PLUS, I'll be honest...there's a certain level of planning you need to do with two. I need to know whether to double the boy clothes I already have or buy some girl clothes. =)

6 comments:

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Congratulations to the Best Mommy and Daddy and Big Brothers! This wonderful news couldn't happen to a more loving and deserving family ... D

Megan said... Best Blogger Tips[Reply to comment]Best Blogger Templates

I have been praying for you and your sweet family. And TWINS! Cole must have known his mommy and daddy needed a special gift from him and God. Congrats! :)

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Very very happy for you and your family! Gifts from God. We will be praying for all of you.

Crystal said... Best Blogger Tips[Reply to comment]Best Blogger Templates

This is the most amazing news! Congratulations! I couldn't be happier for you and your family! What a blessing!

Sarah said... Best Blogger Tips[Reply to comment]Best Blogger Templates

I am so overjoyed with happiness for you all! And twins!!! What a wonderful blessing. I will be praying for and those sweet babies. Congratulations!!!!

Lindsey said... Best Blogger Tips[Reply to comment]Best Blogger Templates

CONGRATS Jackie...what an amazing gift. I haven't been in the blog world for the last couple of days because of the hospital move...but wow...what a gift from our Heavenly Father. Praying for you friend!!!

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